Exercise High

Okay...so I just got done going for a walk on my lunch.  I can't even think of the last time I have done that.  A friend of mine suggested it and I thought .....I probably should.  Now that I am done..I feel good.  Why is it that I cannot remember this feeling so that I can be motivated to do it again?  What happens to us to bring us to a point where even if we do remember that it feels good when we are done....we still don't want to do it?  Is there a mental lapse?  Am I just lazy?  Maybe I don't want to hear the answer to this. 

I have decided to take this moment of feeling good and try to build on it.  I am not going to think about all that I have done wrong.....or all I ate yesterday....or even how much weight I need to lose etc.  I am going to take this as a step in the right direction and I am going to encourage myself to keep moving in that direction.  This is such an emotional .......Game ......basically.  I realize that there are times that we need to be tough on ourselves and then there are times when you just need to encourage.  I realize that no matter what...I cannot do this on my own.  If I do not seek God's help I cannot do it.  I definately learned that a year ago.  I need to take this as a good starting point and keep my eyes on God and press....and press.....and keep pressing on.  When I get tired....I can lean on Him.  No one can do this for me.....as much as that would be nice what would I actually learn?  I just need to stop my complaining (as I read in someone's blog this morning) and realize that I have to make the decision to do this if I want the end result.  As my husband would say....I need to suck it up and drive on.  :)