Sometimes Sunday Makes Me Sad

This morning it was tough to get out of bed.  Mondays are sometimes rough....especially when my husband says he has to go in early.  We have this wonderful weekend and then it is back to the work week. 

Am I grateful that we both have jobs?  Yes!  Is it wonderful that I have an ambitious husband?  Yes!  Do I like my job?  Yes!  For some reason though on Monday mornings when we all leave the house and go in separate directions it just makes me feel alone!  I am very much a family person.  Saturdays and Sundays are the highlight of my week!  I love spending that family time together.  When the kids are at their dad's my hubby and I take time for us.  He is my best friend and I love spending time with him!  Is it selfish to want to have that all the time?  I know I know....life just doesn't work that way.

Last summer my husband was feeling like this (and I know he still does) and he wrote a poem about it.   

SOMETIMES SUNDAY MAKES ME SAD


Sometimes I wish Saturday lasted all year
Because on Sunday morning I wouldn't just stare
I think "Will it be the last time I get to watch you this way?"
As I watch you sleep peacefully as softly you lay
As my hand smoothes gently across your skin
(You smile gently and I watch you and grin)
Peace settles on you and you never open your eyes
You know it's just me when I'm touching your thighs

You open up to me knowing we’re connected
Never opening your eyes because the day becomes hectic
I think to myself many will try to tear us apart
Wanting my time from your time and away from our hearts
I'd flirt across the room and you'd know my thoughts
I am not listening to them and then we engage our plot
You smile "Will you rescue me and take me away?"
"Take me back to when it was a night called Saturday?"
"Even though we had a fight when we were nestled in our bed"
I'd rather listen to you snore than to hear them instead

Sometimes Sunday makes me sad
Cause I have to share you with the world
Wanting to tuck you away and hide my beautiful pearl
Wanting to be selfish and keep your warmth all to myself
As selfish as that is they don't know the kind of love we've felt
As we slowly move forward to what will become Monday
We take a nap during the day to make Sunday try to stay

But sometimes Sunday makes me sad
Because it becomes a day closer to being without you
And the night is further lost to another day of going through
Moments I could have had if I were with you

Sunday's are great when there is no one at home
But I'd rather have my Sunday's with you
Than to be without you ...Alone

By James W. Robertson, II (June 16, 2009)


So what am I going to do about today?  I am going to get my attitude in check and I am going to look forward to what God has planned for me!  I know there is a reason why I work at the job that I have and I know that God is using me to touch others as I go throughout my day. 

Lord, thank you for giving me this day!  It is another opportunity for me to share YOU with others.  Help me to walk the path you have set for me.  Help me to be sensitive to those that are needing a touch or a word from you Lord.  Help me to shine YOUR light wherever I go!  In Jesus Name.  Amen!

Hidden in Him,

Hidden in Him, 
(click on Hidden in Him for a wonderful article)


There are so many of us that are struggling with different things today.  How we choose to deal with it can vary depending on what the storm in our life entails.  I know that many times I stuff it and eat to deal with my emotions!  I can very easily get overwhelmed and just want to crawl into my bed and sleep....that seems to be a coaping mechanism for me as well.  This is NOT what God would have us do!  The enemy loves it when we run away and hide from a situation.  He loves it when we separate ourselves from church and from our Godly friends.  It is at these moments....when we are alone that the enemy brings thoughts to our minds that are against the word of God.  We need run TO God and press in!  He is our protection.  He is our comfort.  When we are weak....He is strong.

There are times when the struggle we are having causes us to want to fight back.  We want to defend ourselves and show the person that is hurting us that we are stronger.  In the particular case that I am thinking of in my life....the fight is not flesh and blood....it is spiritual.  As much as we want to protect our loved ones and go tell this person they better stop messing with this person we love.....we need to let God handle the situation.  We need to let Him fight the battle.  He is able to do this AND lead the person to salvation in the process if they will submit.   I don't think this person that is causing the problem realizes they are messing with a child of God!   

God is using this scripture for the situation.........Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace and remain at rest.

And So the Day Begins......

Why can I not seem to get up in the morning? I was still blowing my hair dry when my husband was ready to walk out the door. For some reason I feel disconnected when that happens. When he is leaving and I didn't even get a chance to talk with him. In fact...I think I nipped at him this morning when he was almost ready to leave I still got my kisses (he cannot leave the house without kissing me ...it's a rule) and he made sure that I heard him tell me that he loves me. Yet I was out of sorts when he left. I didn't know if I should run after him and try to make things better or if it was just me being grumpy in the morning. I hate that feeling.

I was off schedule after that and missed the first bus that I normally ride with my boys in the morning. That felt weird. My routine was messed up. Yes...you guessed it...I like a bit of routine. My husband is Mr. Spontaneous so we balance each other. Once I got on the bus and put my headphones on...I was good to go. The first song was Kari Jobe.."You Are For Me" and it changed my attitude instantly. As I continued to listen to more good music and read some of the blogs that I follow I started to brighten up and look forward to the day. Is there a way to just get out of bed this way? I will have to think on that one. If I find the key...I will let you know. Some people are just happy when they wake up and they get out of bed looking forward to the day. Why can't I do that? Just another thing I need to add to my list of things to "get myself together."

Music Speaks to the Heart

Music....I love music! Do I have the biggest collection? No. Can I name every tune that one would play for me? No. But in my heart of hearts I know that music has the power to move me. It can take me from one mood to another....in just 3 minutes.

Have you ever had a rough day and you get into your car and a song from one summer back when you were in high school comes on the radio. You smile to yourself and then look to see if anyone saw you. You try to go back to being frustrated about your day and yet you find yourself quietly humming with the song. Then the words and the feelings from that time in your life come back to you and you start to sing along. By the end of the song your mood is lifted and you have a different perspective on the day.

Music...whether it be the words or the melody can alter how you feel about a situation, a person, an activity, or even a product. Look at the commercials that are on TV. One of the key factors that goes in to making a commercial is the right music...the catchy jingle. When you see the trailer for a movie....what captures you first? You may not even be looking at the TV but when the music comes on you are instantly intrigued. The movie may not even look very good but because they backed it with the right music....you may go see it anyway. It might have a good soundtrack :) That crucial moment in the movie when the hero gets the girl and they kiss....if they don't have the right music...it can blow the whole movie!

In church....music can be used to praise and worship God! He loves it when we sing to Him and when we dance for Him. God can use music to soften your heart and to help you to feel His presence. He can use the music to touch you to the point that you break down and let out the feelings you have been keeping bottled inside. God uses music to speak to us. I know that is a primary way that He reaches me. I have even gone so far as to say that He gives me a song for a particular day, week, or season. He has given me a gift to make CDs of music for people that He can use to minister to them each time they listen to it.

Music can tell you a lot about a person. Ask your friends what playlist they listen to the most right now? You might be surprised. It can tell you how they are feeling. It may let you know they need encouragement or have some stress they need to release etc.

Bottom line....God gave us music not just for our selfish enjoyment. He gave us music so that we can give back to Him in praise and worship and so that He can work through it to touch us and to move us.

What is on your recent playlist and what does it say about you?

The Power of a Thank You

I don't know about you but I am very much a card person. I probably don't send enough of them. I think about it but then I get caught up in the every day distractions and the thought gets lost.

I truly believe that a simple card or even a simple statement....nothing fancy....just something that says thank you can be a powerful connection between people. If you read my last blog I talked about our Easter production and how stressful it was etc. The night before I received a thank you card that really made me feel appreciated. It really turned some things around for me because I knew that someone saw what I had done and appreciated it. The morning of Easter I received another card and flowers and was called up in front of the audience with my fellow organizers and we were all thanked again. That really helped me to realize that what we all did touched people. Then this morning when I got to work I received a card from my boss (that isn't even working with me quite yet because she is doing a fellowship) and it was a simple card that thanked me for going to lunch with her recently and for helping her stay organized. This made my morning and started my week off on the right foot with the right attitude of wanting to do for others. I don't do it to get cards but when I do get a thank you.....here and there.....it makes me feel good.

So all of this made me think about the one who gave me my life. The one who paid the ultimate price that I might live. The one who painted the sunrise in the morning and made the birds to sing their beautiful songs to me. The one who is always there when I am upset and need to vent or need to cry because my heart is hurting. When was the last time that we thanked God? Does He do all that He does for thank yous? No....not at all. He does it because He is smitten with us. He has an unconditional love for us that no one can even fathem. He loves us so much that He gave His only son to die......for US! When His son was on the cross God even turned His back on Him for a moment as Jesus took on all the past, present, and future sins of this world. To be separated from God....even for a moment had to be the loneliest feeling. I hope I never have to feel that! Yet, He did that for us!

Take some time today and think about all the big and the little things that God does for you every day. Take time to thank Him when you pray! I know that there is power in the words that we speak and I know that God would smile if you gave Him a thank you....even a simple one.

Easter

Easter is here! Whew! Why is it that the weeks leading up to Easter become overwhelming and almost to the point that I don't even enjoy Holy Week when it gets here? Do we forget WHY we are doing all the practicing? Do we forget WHO we are doing this for and get caught up in how we feel and how much time we have to spend practicing etc. I get to the point where I want to just cry out and say....have we forgotten what Jesus went through for us? He paid the ultimate price and that is what we should remember every day....not just at Easter right? So we need to stop whining and complaining and pouting because we didn't get our way or we are uncomfortable. We need to get over ourselves! Lord forgive me for any bad attitude, complaining, eye rolling, gossiping, and any other sins I have committed. I am so sorry!

We try to do some type of performance or production at church each year and my husband and I are always involved in whatever is being done. We normally start this process around about January and yet it seems that we are running behind still when we are only two weeks out from the big performance! I am one of those people that does NOT like to work under pressure. I like to have things done ahead of time and have good communication...dance routines already taught and then it is just practice practice practice the last two weeks! This would be a dream for me and has it happened yet.....NO. Again this year everything got down to the last minute and the stress seems to overshadow the reason WHY we are doing the production in the first place. People get short with each other and everyone is easily irritated....ever been there? Is this all my fault....no...but could we have gotten our parts done sooner? Yes...could we have had better attitudes on a few occasions? Yes....

The night of our last dress rehearsal one of our Pastors spoke to all of those involved in the production and addressed all these issues. It stung. I realize that the things he said did not all pertain to me but I have to say I did run them all through my mind a few hundred times just to make sure that I was listening to what God was checking ME on!

Again....we made it to Easter! We did a performance Saturday night and the stress was finally gone. Our performance today went well also and for both performances it felt so good to sing and dance for the Lord and not really worry what the people thought. We trusted that God was there and He was softening the hearts of those that were watching and touching them each right where they were. I sooo love that about Him. I know that when we do the right things and with our hearts turned toward God that He smiles and is pleased and isn't that what we want....is to have God pleased with us?

Change to the Routine

My husband went in to have a sleep study done last night to see if he has sleep apnea. Did I like having our whole bed to myself?.......maybe for a few minutes but I truly do not like sleeping alone. I love the comfort of knowing my man is next to me. I sleep better.

Bottom line is that he does not need the CPAP machine....Praise God! They decided that he needs to learn how to basically mellow out before he goes to bed. We already had a feeling this was the problem but we wanted to rule out anything else. We talked about the things that he likes to do in the evening such as writing last minute 3 to 5 page papers for college, watching suspensful TV programs, playing video games, eating, falling asleep with the TV on to have the background noise, etc. He has known that these are not ideal and I have told him this over the years that we have been together. Well today.....his doctor told him. I felt like doing a cartwheel!! I think now that he has had the confirmation from the doctor he will start to change the routine for bedtime.

I am really looking forward to what this new routine could look like. I have not even seen the list of suggestions and information he received from the nurse but I am a huge advocate for mellowing out before bed. I even mentioned to him that our whole family should take this on and let it help all of us together!

I could see some quiet time reading to each other, talking about some things we want to talk about (not heated discussions with anger), listening to some music, and just spending some "quality" time together. I am excited! I think this is going to be a plus for him as well as all of us.